6 posts tagged “wards”
What's the last thing you usually do or think about before you fall asleep?
i've gotten better at relaxing myself, especially since i'm in a stable environment. things have changed, and that's good, despite my struggling and whining.
i count myself off to sleep by walking down a beach and into the ocean, or up stairs into the stars, or by growing wings on any of my favorite people.
it works for me, and it's helped stare down my panic attacks and my insomnia.
the course of the day turns more strange when you begin to miss the things that you never thought you'd even think of, let alone miss, about a place, a time.
today, i miss ireland, and i'm not sure why. perhaps it was the few hours waiting in a sun-heated car or the lack of career choices or the concept that we've just changed lives completely without a blink back, but no matter how hard i shake my head, it stays grasped in the handshake of a run-on sentence with itself.i often find myself reverting back to the last time i was comfortable when my head is going to explode, and my back is made of rocks.
i miss ireland for a lot, and not all of it is me.